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A Last Dance in the Rain

Dancing in the Rain

a last dance in the rain

 

It’s raining outside,
And the sound of gentle drops on my window is beautiful and calming.

So I push back the curtain,
Peek out the window with nostalgic wonder.

And I’m met with a blue-grey blanket of rain,
One that paints a sweet memory of us, silent, listening to our hearts beat.

It’s hard to believe,
All I can sense of you now is hidden in pockets of nature.

Yet still,
Feel robbed of a chance to encounter our nature.

Days go by,
These memories, I fear, will start to fade.

As I dream of a time when you were the rain,
And I ran outside,
And we gently danced our last in nature’s embrace.

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Lesson: From the Elderly to the Young

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I’ve got an elderly friend called *Emma whom I met on a social media group for old expatriates who grew up in Kenya.
I had joined the group years ago for research purposes for my old job as a writer, but I grew fond of the new friends. 

Recently, Emma shared just how tough the last 10months have been as she grieved over her beloved husband *Sam. She had attended a wedding where she suddenly broke into tears just to realise how much she missed Sam. She wanted him there so bad. She admits that never has she felt so alone in her life without Sam.

Emma’s words move me to tears and make me reflect over my life. At the moment, my peers are sharing about having great jobs, happily engaged or married, getting babies…etc. At some point we’ll all face new phases of life. Invitations will start ranging from kids’ graduations, kids’ weddings,¬† friends’ funerals, parents’ funerals.
Then pension days kick in, we become grandparents, and then like Emma and Sam, life’s toughest goodbyes are said to the beloved.

Makes me wonder what we young people complain about or why we struggle so much to prove ourselves to other people and society.

As I read the replies by other elderly friends who’ve gone through such grief, I began to see just how life is richer when lived simple – in love.

In their golden years my old mates’ chats, memories, activities and even seasons of grief are painted by those they vowed to spend the rest of their lives with.

Death seems less scary than no longer experiencing the love of their beloveds. No longer feeling the warmth of their skin. No longer here.

My dear friends who are now like my libraries of wisdom have taught me this:

When life’s sunset draws near, all your money, power and other¬† achievements mean nothing.
All that matters is having found home, at last, in the heart of s/he who really loves you.

Hope this message inspires you!
^_^

Courage

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I can confidently say that I am not the same woman I was two months ago.
Why so?

Well… fear checked in big-time! I woke up one day and imagined myself as a 50-year-old woman. Judging from the attitude I had in life I predicted the kind of situation I would be in. Let’s just say that it didn’t look good at all. It was pitiful to picture myself as the woman I had imagined.

Snapping back to reality was the best feeling ever! I realised just how much I could still do to end up at a better place than I had seen myself in. There was suddenly an opportunity to work on my attitude and realise that the change begins with me and in my mind.

The best thing is that suddenly I don’t fear much in life as I used to. The greatest lesson I’ve learnt is that instead of focusing on fear of the uncertain future, it is much better to focus on the possibility of great things that lie ahead in my life.

So be kind to yourself. Don’t leave any room for fear, open wide your life to the possibilities of a positive future.

Courage is a state mind!

Going against the grain

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“I can’t remember the last party I attended as a young man…” This was an interesting confession during a chat last week with Bob Collymore who is Safaricom Limited’s CEO.

I had always thought that meeting someone as successful as Bob Collymore would leave me feeling so small yet hopeful that I could one day become just as great. This was not the case.

Instead, I was humbled, inspired and reassured that I have been on the right track towards my success. See, it was a Friday afternoon and instead of going home to get ready for a fun girls’ night out, I was at the Seed of Hope Centre where I volunteer as a mentor for young boys and girls.
I hadn’t noticed this until he said, “You could be anywhere else but you chose to be here…” He explained that it was a sacrifice not many young people would be willing to make.

What followed was a motivation to go against the grain and invest in people because that is what matters most in life.

At the end of the day, when we look back and what we see is anything but the betterment of people’s lives, we not only fail ourselves but humanity.

He told me this knowing that I am a young Kenyan who is currently unemployed but who has got a passion for mentoring young people. He saw gold where many saw a struggling person.

Now if this doesn’t show how a successful mind works, then I don’t know what does.

What is more important than the beginning and the achievement of success is the journey towards success. Embrace it!

Every moment in life counts

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A butterfly has got a lifespan of about 2weeks to 2months.

Still she floats in the air, flying joyfully and warming many hearts.
The fact that her life is too short doesn’t hinder her from capturing many people with her beauty.

She flaps her delicate wings, from flower to flower, blind to the uncertainty of another tomorrow. She lives in the now of today.

Every moment in life is precious and another chance to shine with all beauty that already exists in you.

Don’t let the pains, problems, or the unknown turn the beauty of your life into grey.

Our prayers are never lost

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Our prayers are never lost even when they are not answered immediately, in our time, or within a specific circumstance.

Our prayers may even get lost in our memories but they are never forgotten by God; they remain active and just as important as when we first prayed.

Blessings happen to us everyday, but they could be answered prayers that we had long buried in our memories.

His timing, God’s timing is the best!

Learning to Wait

I had been wondering why my loquat tree hasn’t yet bloomed with tasty fruit like the other trees I saw on Monday as I walked home.

This was yet another revelation of human impatience that is often triggered by comparison.
But then I remembered that the other loquat trees had a mix of ripe fruit, raw fruit and others still in the process if blooming flowers.

Such is the case with my journey of life. It can’t always be harvest time 24/7.

There are some areas in my life where I am experiencing harvest season, some areas where I am experiencing a season of loss, some areas where I am experiencing a season of planting and yet some areas where I am experiencing the most difficult season of waiting.

Just like my loquat tree, I am experiencing a mix of seasons that don’t look appetizing from the outside. But with time and patience, the mixed seasons will expose that there had always been something great at work.

If you thought that God doesn’t reveal Himself to us through nature, think again. I learned about Him this week through observing my loquat tree.

I hope this tale encourages you to be patient regardless of the mess your life might look like at the moment.

God is at work in your life despite the mix of seasons. Just trust Him and He will not let you down.

Why compare your purpose with others’ lives? We are all uniquely destined in the eyes of God. Each tree has its unique moment within a season.

Today, I saw some flowers bloom on my loquat tree. Looks like it’s moment has come.

Love and Sunshine,
Ayuma.

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